plan and consider

I was living in a fast lane last week. Had to attend to many things. But I like the rush because it makes me focus on one thing and one thing only…work! Basically that’s the meaning of my life. I can proudly announce that. I enjoy the solace I feel when I am working. Though I never meant to imply that it is all chocolate and roses. the beauty of it all was in the way it makes me bury my head in the chaos. Somewhat it organizes my life and gives a new definition to my feeling without complication. In so many ways, I love it.

I have plans for my life.Everything is planned in an orderly sequence because I prefer to do it my way. I never let anything stand in the way. I only care for something that matters to me. But now,many things just popped up out of nowhere that i might have to reconsider those plannings.

I have too many reservations about life.Got a lot of question.maybe it's experience and maybe it's observation or both. My friend said I have too high an expectation. And that it is hard to fulfill them. In exact word “susah to satisfy u…” But that’s the only way I know how to fend for myself. I can’t afford being casual about life…Let alone making mistake or opening up just to be hurt again. There are so many things to answer for. So many feelings to take care of. So many bigger considerations than just being casual about life.

so,Is it asking too much to not settle for less?

time can do so much

it pays a great deal to be observant about time.it makes you feel happy, you dont keep other people waiting and nobody gets hurt in the process.it makes everyone happy.
but sometimes, times just add on to the stress.
the stress to fulfil the expectation of coming at expected times
the stress on how to make it flies when you got into an uninteresting situation
the stress to just see anything/something happens out of the blue.
times is invaluable either way because it can do so much.much to our surprises or annoyance.
but many people dont know what's the importance of time.
until it's too late to do or say anything.
until the time when you cant change or turn back or add anything.
until the times when death creeps through our door.

Carpe Diem

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These's streets we traveled on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'll do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
(a melody, a memory, or just one PICTURE)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
(a melody, a memory, or just one PICTURE)

Seize the day or die regretting the time You lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here
Don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
So I never want to leave you and the memories OF us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time You lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here
Don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence, you lost me-- no chance for one more day
Silence, you lost me-- no chance for one more day
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home

-Avenged Sevenfold-

Fergalicious

(source:yahoo.news)

As the front woman for the mega successful hip-hop group, the Black Eyed Peas, Fergie is known for her sexy style, her edgy persona, and as she puts it, being "a little rough around the edges." But she's also a talented songwriter, a fashion designer, an actress and most recently, a wife. While taking on the role of new bride to actor Josh Duhamel, Fergie has decided to overhaul her raunchy onstage image. With even the First Family as fans, perhaps suggestive dance moves and dirty lyrics need to be toned down. Is the pop star we know and love going soft? Marie Claire gets the scoop on the work in progress that is Fergie.

She's adapting her image as she matures as an artist"I wasn't trying to be a role model with The Dutchess," she says, of the stacked-heel seductress she evokes on the album. "But suddenly, seeing little girls in the audience with their moms made me think about what I do onstage a little bit more. I had to watch my mouth, because it can be filthy. It changed things for me." So did learning that "Fergalicious" is Sasha Obama's favorite song. When Fergie performed at this year's White House Easter egg hunt, even the president told her, somewhat surreally, "I can relate to the line 'working on my fitness.'"

She wants to take on new challenges
"I've been working straight since 2003, so I might just want to take an improv or theater class," she offers. "That excites me. I can't wait to do different characters-not necessarily the leading chick who gets the guy, but the weird, freaky cousin."

She admits she has flawsShe feels she's "a little rough around the edges," unlike, say, Beyoncé or Gwen Stefani, who seemingly have it all. "They're the ones who I like to say are on the perfect cruise. Those people who always get it right. I've had a few more scandals."

She's still adjusting to married life
"Well, my boyfriend..." Fergie starts, referring, presumably, to her swoony new husband, Transformers star Josh Duhamel. "Oh my gosh, my boyfriend? I didn't even say my fiancé! He's going to kill me," she says, doubling over with laughter. "I told you we were newlyweds."

After a series of rocky romances, she now appreciates a healthy relationship
"It's funny, because at work I have to be a very strong, tough woman. But when I'm with him, I just turn on this baby girl voice because ... he's my big tall man!" she says with a throaty laugh. With heavy personal challenges behind her, including a well-documented meth addiction, Fergie—the former Kids Incorporated child star, onetime straight-A student, and spelling-bee champ—doesn't take the gift of a good man lightly. "I've been in a lot of relationships that were exciting but unhealthy, very Sid-and-Nancy-esque. I wanted somebody I could count on. With all the craziness of this business, I know I can count on my man—and he knows he can count on me.

totally my sentiment...

summer fever

Hai, nama saya aznah.saya mengalami perasaan halus itu.tiba-tiba. Saya rindu dia setiap masa.walaupun dia hanya berada dalam jarak tidak sampai seminit pun. Saya tidak punya reason yang jelas untuk suka dia..yang penting saya memang sedang gila.hati sedang berbunga-bunga.masalahnya,saya tidak mahu dia tau.takut kalau hilang friendship dengan dia.or i thought i have feel that.
Tapi,tiba-tiba saya rasa saya telah mensalah tafsirkan perasaan sendiri.because of something people said. there is a time when i feel real close to him, dan bila saya rasa 'trust' tu sudah terbentuk then he goes around, and then suddenly he is shutting out from me.i hate it when he ignores me.and even more hate it when he tries to hide himself.hate it so much.
betul, saya orang yang sukar untuk bentuk in depth connection dengan orang lain. Tambahan lagi kalau connection yang insecure.karang tidak pasal-pasal kena virus.hehe.itulah pasal connection saya selalu down.sebab saya perlu sesuatu yang solid sebelum boleh connect dengan orang lain.Tapi kes yang ini ter-overlook pula..sebab firewall tidak di train untuk fight viruses of this kind.hehe. jadinya dia detect tapi tak boleh buat apa.;o)..in this case though, i have tried my best to connect.and the result was not bad, but not good either..i guess next time i'll let it be.
Sebenarnya.Saya pun tidak pasti ini apa.mungkin sekadar passing fancy.nothing profound.. ini mungkin kerana terlalu banyak spend time together dengan dia doing nothing..sounds romantic but hey..nothing fancy.
So, fancy is what fancy does..it will cease..in the meantime, I ll just bask in until I get tan.;o)
and i keep reminding myself, friendship is just that.and nothing more.