The headache had gone from wild throbbing to a mild one. But i still have to abstain from my Caffeine..
today, i managed to complete my list of things to finish marking. All of them. Marked and put neatly in my marking form. Great!:o)
today, i managed to cut my calorie lesser than i normally eat on working day.Cutting the cost as well!hehehe. i was not as hungry as usual, and my craving for food has lessen. Yes!!! so my going to the sport center these lately seems to be working wonder.
Insya Allah, im going to start my jogging session later..Hurrayy to keeping fit..:o)
Well.My outspoken-ness got out today. Twice. I was definitely extra sensitive today. Someone was making fun of my passing out in a car awhile back while we were in Sibu. I understand that she didn't mean to joke about it, but someone else thought it was funny. that moron laughed it OUT LOUD. So, in my most cynical way, i said straight away: funny,was it? Try to be in that situation and feel for yourself whether it was funny or no..As if on cue, the laugh stopped and everyone pretended nothing was said, and changed the topic. I on the other hand smiled a sweet smile, and keep quiet. i just didn't like the way they talked about it as if it was a fun thing. No, people. it was not. FYI, at that time, i was battling with headache, and nauseous feeling, because obviously i have eaten something i wasn't supposed to eat. and because i was too stupid and egoistic and didn't want to trouble other people with my condition, that's what i get.an entire lifetime's set of laughter.
And during the afternoon tea with my friend. The canteen people served me with an expired milk. so imagine the taste of my Bandung..So i went to the counter, and asked the person to have a sip from my bandung. There's no use talking. and for that: i got air jagung special. Whatever. the point is i was only trying to prove my point. Luckily, i didn't say anything cynical this time. ;o)
Sessions with my mum these lately inspired a change of perspective for me, also maybe a change in address. So, i have 2 new goals. Perhaps all these while, what's lacking in me was a goal to achieve. So Insyaallah, if Allah wills, then it will be.
Rating for today: Good,despite a few turbulence. :o)
Sep 30, 2011
Sep 28, 2011
and the pain continues
Still in so much pain.
the lower part on the right side of my head is throbbing painfully. i have to consider going to the doctor tomorrow. i couldn't let myself be helpless where i have to ask other people to take care of me. That would be too much troubles.
i don't know what is the point of eating all that painkillers. They are just filling my veins with unnecessary drugs.If this continues, i would be in such a lousy state, that would irritate my very self.
Please just go away, pain. Please!
the lower part on the right side of my head is throbbing painfully. i have to consider going to the doctor tomorrow. i couldn't let myself be helpless where i have to ask other people to take care of me. That would be too much troubles.
i don't know what is the point of eating all that painkillers. They are just filling my veins with unnecessary drugs.If this continues, i would be in such a lousy state, that would irritate my very self.
Please just go away, pain. Please!
Aches that linger
My head is in continuous pain since Saturday night. I thought it was the time of the month, but it never shows up.
Then, it must be an old bout of migraine. I have been living almost without my usual daily intact of caffeine, and it didn't go away. Instead, it continues throbbing.it has been my constant companion for now. i don't know what to expect of it...
but i happily go about doing everything that i feel like doing; play volleyball, going to the gym, anything at all(with caution) although, i feel uncomfortable with it. sometimes when it becomes too much and i couldn't focus, then i feel like screaming. or when people are laughing happily it annoyed me because the pain is unbearable..
or probably it was caused by my over eating habit(i have more appetite than before) these lately..and when the thought about my weight strike/i suddenly feel overwhelmed. i hate fatness and everything that look round.. Hate would probably be an understatement. I DETEST FAT!!!!.
oh i have a serious case of psychological illness. no doubt about it by now.
and i dare to wonder why my headache wouldn't go away...
Then, it must be an old bout of migraine. I have been living almost without my usual daily intact of caffeine, and it didn't go away. Instead, it continues throbbing.it has been my constant companion for now. i don't know what to expect of it...
but i happily go about doing everything that i feel like doing; play volleyball, going to the gym, anything at all(with caution) although, i feel uncomfortable with it. sometimes when it becomes too much and i couldn't focus, then i feel like screaming. or when people are laughing happily it annoyed me because the pain is unbearable..
or probably it was caused by my over eating habit(i have more appetite than before) these lately..and when the thought about my weight strike/i suddenly feel overwhelmed. i hate fatness and everything that look round.. Hate would probably be an understatement. I DETEST FAT!!!!.
oh i have a serious case of psychological illness. no doubt about it by now.
and i dare to wonder why my headache wouldn't go away...
Sep 23, 2011
My pockets of Sunshine
Blessing is always the small details in life that we tend to overlook because we expected that Allah would give us what we need in bulk.
Today, a stranger asked or rather invited me to eat with her in her kitchen!i was dumbfounded because i almost can't believe that such kindness existed.Or i didnt expect any kindness from people. but when she insisted on suddenly inviting me for lunch, i just couldn't say NO. It was simple dishes-jeruk buah embang(as the local called it, and ikan masin)- and also an iced tea. As i was eating, i thank god for the opportunity to witness kindness in this form. As i was leaving the premise, i thanked the aunt, and pray that God blessed her with the same kindness she had demonstrated to me. She just smiled. Although i insisted on paying the iced tea, she refused my money.
the day before, as i was paying my breakfast, i bumped into a lady friend of mine who has forgotten her purse. as she was busy contacting her husband to come and pay for the food she bought, i silently paid it for her. It seemed to be an appropriate gesture at the time. although, our acquaintance is a fleeting one-it is just a nodding acquaintance, but i am glad to be off help.
i dont believe in doing good only when people understand the meaning of your action. i believe that there is goodness in every action, IF only you want to see it that way.
Another one was-by now a very dear friend of mine- i was touched deeply by-what i believed- was a great gesture of friendship. i like the way he was being frank about things that concerned me-of work, of personal things, or of anything. i remembered once when i got myself into an accident, he was the only one who didn't try to make me feel better. he said to my face-that it was your fault, and that it happened because you were not extra careful. I was sad by the accident but i dont need people who keep on saying it's ok, everyone got into at least one accident, don't feel bad about yourself thingy. I dont need people who keeps on saying good things in an attempt to make me feel better only to laugh about it at my back. i felt better because there was someone who cared enough to point that it was serious, and i should do something about it. the reality surprisingly kept me grounded.i appreciated that about him. i like his neutrality, the brotherly affection i always feel when i'm around him, or his insecurity when he was angry or when he was doubting himself on something. i really appreciated him being there. i wish all the happiness in the world for him, and may Allah made easier for him his affairs.Amin..
i talked to my mum, and i realised how i wanted to hug her, for being the best person on earth. forgive me mum if i'm not a perfect daughter for you.But i love you so much.i might be a crybaby most of the times, and you never complaint about that even once.i lost myself once but you bring me back, and i was forever indebted to you. But, i promise you, im going to be always the best for you.Insyaallah.
Today, a stranger asked or rather invited me to eat with her in her kitchen!i was dumbfounded because i almost can't believe that such kindness existed.Or i didnt expect any kindness from people. but when she insisted on suddenly inviting me for lunch, i just couldn't say NO. It was simple dishes-jeruk buah embang(as the local called it, and ikan masin)- and also an iced tea. As i was eating, i thank god for the opportunity to witness kindness in this form. As i was leaving the premise, i thanked the aunt, and pray that God blessed her with the same kindness she had demonstrated to me. She just smiled. Although i insisted on paying the iced tea, she refused my money.
the day before, as i was paying my breakfast, i bumped into a lady friend of mine who has forgotten her purse. as she was busy contacting her husband to come and pay for the food she bought, i silently paid it for her. It seemed to be an appropriate gesture at the time. although, our acquaintance is a fleeting one-it is just a nodding acquaintance, but i am glad to be off help.
i dont believe in doing good only when people understand the meaning of your action. i believe that there is goodness in every action, IF only you want to see it that way.
Another one was-by now a very dear friend of mine- i was touched deeply by-what i believed- was a great gesture of friendship. i like the way he was being frank about things that concerned me-of work, of personal things, or of anything. i remembered once when i got myself into an accident, he was the only one who didn't try to make me feel better. he said to my face-that it was your fault, and that it happened because you were not extra careful. I was sad by the accident but i dont need people who keep on saying it's ok, everyone got into at least one accident, don't feel bad about yourself thingy. I dont need people who keeps on saying good things in an attempt to make me feel better only to laugh about it at my back. i felt better because there was someone who cared enough to point that it was serious, and i should do something about it. the reality surprisingly kept me grounded.i appreciated that about him. i like his neutrality, the brotherly affection i always feel when i'm around him, or his insecurity when he was angry or when he was doubting himself on something. i really appreciated him being there. i wish all the happiness in the world for him, and may Allah made easier for him his affairs.Amin..
i talked to my mum, and i realised how i wanted to hug her, for being the best person on earth. forgive me mum if i'm not a perfect daughter for you.But i love you so much.i might be a crybaby most of the times, and you never complaint about that even once.i lost myself once but you bring me back, and i was forever indebted to you. But, i promise you, im going to be always the best for you.Insyaallah.
Sep 20, 2011
Doa hari ini
Ya Allah...
Maaf hamba Mu ini meminta lagi.
Dengan nama Allah, yang mana tidak ada sesuatu pun dilangit dan bumi yang memudaratkan tanpa izin Mu...
Kau cukupkanlah keperluan ku sehingga aku tak meminta-meminta selain daripadaMu.
Peliharalah diriku dari rasa sedih dan duka, dari sifat lemah dan malas, dari kebakhilan dan kefakiran serta seksa kubur. .
Peliharalah diriku dari beban hutang dan penindasan orang
Sesungguhnya tiada tuhan melainkan Engkau, dan aku ini adalah dari kalangan orang-orang yang menzalimi diri.
Tiadalah daya upaya melainkan Engkau ya Allah. Aku menyerahkan segala urusanku pada perkiraan-Mu ya Rahman,ya Rahim..
amin...
Maaf hamba Mu ini meminta lagi.
Dengan nama Allah, yang mana tidak ada sesuatu pun dilangit dan bumi yang memudaratkan tanpa izin Mu...
Kau cukupkanlah keperluan ku sehingga aku tak meminta-meminta selain daripadaMu.
Peliharalah diriku dari rasa sedih dan duka, dari sifat lemah dan malas, dari kebakhilan dan kefakiran serta seksa kubur. .
Peliharalah diriku dari beban hutang dan penindasan orang
Sesungguhnya tiada tuhan melainkan Engkau, dan aku ini adalah dari kalangan orang-orang yang menzalimi diri.
Tiadalah daya upaya melainkan Engkau ya Allah. Aku menyerahkan segala urusanku pada perkiraan-Mu ya Rahman,ya Rahim..
amin...
Sep 19, 2011
kata-kata hanya mimpi
Inilah aku. Suka sabotaj kebahagiaan sendiri.
Hari berputar bagai tiada henti. Hariku penuh dengan tugasan yang sentiasa menanti.lalu aku terlarut ke alam sendiri. membiarkan dia menjawab sendiri tanda soal di hati.
lantaran terbiasa menjaga diri, terlupa seketika ada dia ditepi, kubiarkan masa berlalu sendiri, kerana ku butuh ruang sendiri.
saat dia cuba merapati, semakin jauh ku bawa diri. bukan kerana hati tak sudi, kerana tak tahu bagaimana mengungkapi rasa hati.
Oh, bagaimana ini?semakin ku cuba membuka hati, semakin jauh pula aku berlari. masih bimbang andai dia khianati, mengharap dia mengerti sendiri.
Tuhan, bagaimana seharusnya aku hadapi, sekejap rasa kasih dihati, sekejap rasa bertukar ngeri, sekali sekala bimbang sendiri, ada ketika tak ambil peduli.
Adakah belum layak aku bermimpi?memilih dia menghuni dihati?adakah belum tiba seru alami?Yang dekat belum mampu berganti?atau hati yang bermain sendiri?menidakkan perasaan yang mulai kembang berseri? atau apakah?
Hari berputar bagai tiada henti. Hariku penuh dengan tugasan yang sentiasa menanti.lalu aku terlarut ke alam sendiri. membiarkan dia menjawab sendiri tanda soal di hati.
lantaran terbiasa menjaga diri, terlupa seketika ada dia ditepi, kubiarkan masa berlalu sendiri, kerana ku butuh ruang sendiri.
saat dia cuba merapati, semakin jauh ku bawa diri. bukan kerana hati tak sudi, kerana tak tahu bagaimana mengungkapi rasa hati.
Oh, bagaimana ini?semakin ku cuba membuka hati, semakin jauh pula aku berlari. masih bimbang andai dia khianati, mengharap dia mengerti sendiri.
Tuhan, bagaimana seharusnya aku hadapi, sekejap rasa kasih dihati, sekejap rasa bertukar ngeri, sekali sekala bimbang sendiri, ada ketika tak ambil peduli.
Adakah belum layak aku bermimpi?memilih dia menghuni dihati?adakah belum tiba seru alami?Yang dekat belum mampu berganti?atau hati yang bermain sendiri?menidakkan perasaan yang mulai kembang berseri? atau apakah?
Sep 17, 2011
Tercipta Untukku
Menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
Membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku
Banyak kata
Yang tak mampu kuungkapkan
Kepada dirimu
Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Sepanjang hidupku
Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu
Sepanjang hidupku
................................
Membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku
Banyak kata
Yang tak mampu kuungkapkan
Kepada dirimu
Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Sepanjang hidupku
Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu
Sepanjang hidupku
................................
The Lost Valentine
A story about a woman who waited for her navy husband for 65 years, at a train station they last met every valentine's day.One day, after 65 years, she get to meet her husband only the meeting was a final parting as she was meeting the body of her dead husband. the story was the story of chances and the courage to face each passing days, and to expect whatever possibility that presented itself. a story of how we should grab the chance when we have the time, and not be regretful of the decisions we made, however painful it is.
The story was set in WW2, critical time where you cant hardly expect anything. the time when promises had no value. When hope would usually ended up in vain. But, in times when optimism seemed overrated, that's the time you needed it the most.
As the navy's trombone sounded to mark the final parting, one can only feel deeply for her: thoughts about the grief, the lost time and the memories: Tears were streaming uncontrollably as she was kissing the coffin of the dead beloved.
AS the woman said:Life has to move on. Give yourself the chance. take the chance. Although, something would always live as a part of you but when it's the time to let go, it has to be.
:o)
The story was set in WW2, critical time where you cant hardly expect anything. the time when promises had no value. When hope would usually ended up in vain. But, in times when optimism seemed overrated, that's the time you needed it the most.
As the navy's trombone sounded to mark the final parting, one can only feel deeply for her: thoughts about the grief, the lost time and the memories: Tears were streaming uncontrollably as she was kissing the coffin of the dead beloved.
AS the woman said:Life has to move on. Give yourself the chance. take the chance. Although, something would always live as a part of you but when it's the time to let go, it has to be.
:o)
Sep 15, 2011
Aku dan Dirimu
Aku yang kekok!
Masih cuba bermain waktu..
sengaja mengosongkan ruang-ruang ditengah aku dan kamu
Masih cuba lari walaupun kaki tak sudi melangkah.
Masih cuba.
Takut akan perasaan sendiri.Takut kamu hilang saat aku menghampiri.
Takut kamu terbaca gerak hati
takut kamu dapat mengesan betapa kosongnya hariku tiada kamu.
.........
Masih cuba bermain waktu..
sengaja mengosongkan ruang-ruang ditengah aku dan kamu
Masih cuba lari walaupun kaki tak sudi melangkah.
Masih cuba.
Takut akan perasaan sendiri.Takut kamu hilang saat aku menghampiri.
Takut kamu terbaca gerak hati
takut kamu dapat mengesan betapa kosongnya hariku tiada kamu.
.........
Sep 14, 2011
Intuisi ku
Aku sedang mempersoalkan rasaku. Adakah aku bermain lagi?mencari teman berhiburan sementara aku meneutralkan hati yang terluka?
Sesungguhnya, dengan setiap perasaan yang kurasakan tentang dia semuanya benar. Aku cuba memberi ruang kepada diri dan dia, moga ada pelajarannya disana. yang nyata, aku rasa selamat dengan dia, rasa gembira semula, dan lebih fokus kepada kehidupan. aku merasakan perasaan halus yang membuak-buak, hanya kerana ada dia disitu.
kadang-kadang, ada rindu yang datang pada teman lama. tapi bila difikirkan semula,apalah gunanya?Hanya aku yang rindu-rinduan sendiri, hanya aku yang terasa-rasa sendiri, sidia?entahkan aku wujud entahkan tidak. Dia membuat ku rasa tak selamat, tak yakin diri dan penuh dengan emosi-emosi keras dan kasar. Aku takkan menafikan betapa aku sayangkan dia, tapi sudah terlambat untuk itu. Aku tak berani mempertaruhkan hati lagi. bimbang yang sudah pecah berkeping, jadi pecah berderai pula. bagaimana akan ku cantum semula?tak mengapalah. Aku tahu dia bahagia sekarang. aku doakan.
Intuisiku banyak pula benarnya belakangan ini. dan tak banyak tersasar dari realiti sebenar. Untuk teman rapatku yang seorang itu.Bukan aku tak dapat merasakan betapa gusarnya dia, atau betapa lukanya dia kerana si polan yang pelik, tapi mungkin kerana aku sudah banyak melukakan diri sendiri, maka aku gagal merasakan gusarnya. cuma kepada si polan ini, dia tidak seharusnya menghancurkan orang lain dengan jengkel fikirannya sendiri. Atau mungkin aku terlalu terselimut gembira maka aku jadi tak sensitif dengan emosi orang lain?atau mungkin kerana aku mahu lupakan luka-luka kecewa yang masih berbekas dihati?Jika amatan ku ini benar, adakah guess ku tentang yang lain juga?
Detik ini, aku tak mengharap banyak dari orang-orang. Pada dia atau sidia. Aku hanya berdoa apa yang selayaknya untuk ku. Kerana yakin Dia lebih tahu perancangan mana yang terbaik untukku.
Kali ini, aku tak kan menolak dia lagi. dan kiranya dia pergi lagi kali ini, aku tetap akan menerima dengan hati yang lapang..
Sesungguhnya, dengan setiap perasaan yang kurasakan tentang dia semuanya benar. Aku cuba memberi ruang kepada diri dan dia, moga ada pelajarannya disana. yang nyata, aku rasa selamat dengan dia, rasa gembira semula, dan lebih fokus kepada kehidupan. aku merasakan perasaan halus yang membuak-buak, hanya kerana ada dia disitu.
kadang-kadang, ada rindu yang datang pada teman lama. tapi bila difikirkan semula,apalah gunanya?Hanya aku yang rindu-rinduan sendiri, hanya aku yang terasa-rasa sendiri, sidia?entahkan aku wujud entahkan tidak. Dia membuat ku rasa tak selamat, tak yakin diri dan penuh dengan emosi-emosi keras dan kasar. Aku takkan menafikan betapa aku sayangkan dia, tapi sudah terlambat untuk itu. Aku tak berani mempertaruhkan hati lagi. bimbang yang sudah pecah berkeping, jadi pecah berderai pula. bagaimana akan ku cantum semula?tak mengapalah. Aku tahu dia bahagia sekarang. aku doakan.
Intuisiku banyak pula benarnya belakangan ini. dan tak banyak tersasar dari realiti sebenar. Untuk teman rapatku yang seorang itu.Bukan aku tak dapat merasakan betapa gusarnya dia, atau betapa lukanya dia kerana si polan yang pelik, tapi mungkin kerana aku sudah banyak melukakan diri sendiri, maka aku gagal merasakan gusarnya. cuma kepada si polan ini, dia tidak seharusnya menghancurkan orang lain dengan jengkel fikirannya sendiri. Atau mungkin aku terlalu terselimut gembira maka aku jadi tak sensitif dengan emosi orang lain?atau mungkin kerana aku mahu lupakan luka-luka kecewa yang masih berbekas dihati?Jika amatan ku ini benar, adakah guess ku tentang yang lain juga?
Detik ini, aku tak mengharap banyak dari orang-orang. Pada dia atau sidia. Aku hanya berdoa apa yang selayaknya untuk ku. Kerana yakin Dia lebih tahu perancangan mana yang terbaik untukku.
Kali ini, aku tak kan menolak dia lagi. dan kiranya dia pergi lagi kali ini, aku tetap akan menerima dengan hati yang lapang..
Sep 11, 2011
Indah yang Menyakitkan
...Sedang cuba menahan diri dari menangis...
fikiran ingatkan dia-nangis
gembira kerana jokes dia-nangis
dengar dia ketawa-nangis lagi
tengok dia makan-nangis lagi
dia senyum-nangis
dia hanya kata hati-hati, it's ok-nangis juga...
....dengan kamu, aku jadi penangis.sensitif melampau-lampau....
oh ya.Mungkin saja sudah sampai masanya...
"Tuhan turunkan hujan, supaya kita boleh menikmati indahnya warna-warni pelangi"
I was crying for the sake of gloomy old times. i was crying because i am grateful for you.
Touched.
fikiran ingatkan dia-nangis
gembira kerana jokes dia-nangis
dengar dia ketawa-nangis lagi
tengok dia makan-nangis lagi
dia senyum-nangis
dia hanya kata hati-hati, it's ok-nangis juga...
....dengan kamu, aku jadi penangis.sensitif melampau-lampau....
oh ya.Mungkin saja sudah sampai masanya...
"Tuhan turunkan hujan, supaya kita boleh menikmati indahnya warna-warni pelangi"
I was crying for the sake of gloomy old times. i was crying because i am grateful for you.
Touched.
Sep 10, 2011
S.a.t.i.s.f.a.c.t.i.o.n
satisfaction.
that's how i would like to conclude today.
In the morning, all the house's chores were completed.
i was crying watching P.Ramlee the musical, the songs, the narration, everything was mind blowing.i simply love P.Ramlee.All of him.
In the afternoon, i fetched a friend at the airport. we went eating at the stall beside the river.and spend another hours at her house. catching up stories. Many.some of them were sad, some were shocking. But, then it was time worth spending. Glad was my feeling.
i went home a bit after Maghrib, and went to my other friend's house-open house-eat again.talked to her mum, before i excused myself for my weekly duty at Kamsis.
a little bit after 11.a text reminded me that i have neglected an important person today. surprisingly, i explained about what i do. and felt relieved by it. and felt guilty too. i wasnt trying to exclude anyone from my life, and because i value the relationship, and i dont want anyone to feel neglected, so i apologize. i was surprised by what i do. But, i learned the hard way about the importance of explaining and saying sorry in a relationship. i know how much this person meant to me.i dont want to spoil this one with my egocentric.i was so very relieved.
So that's the source of my feel good vibe.By knowing that i try my best to do the best for people i care about..
Insyaallah.:o)
that's how i would like to conclude today.
In the morning, all the house's chores were completed.
i was crying watching P.Ramlee the musical, the songs, the narration, everything was mind blowing.i simply love P.Ramlee.All of him.
In the afternoon, i fetched a friend at the airport. we went eating at the stall beside the river.and spend another hours at her house. catching up stories. Many.some of them were sad, some were shocking. But, then it was time worth spending. Glad was my feeling.
i went home a bit after Maghrib, and went to my other friend's house-open house-eat again.talked to her mum, before i excused myself for my weekly duty at Kamsis.
a little bit after 11.a text reminded me that i have neglected an important person today. surprisingly, i explained about what i do. and felt relieved by it. and felt guilty too. i wasnt trying to exclude anyone from my life, and because i value the relationship, and i dont want anyone to feel neglected, so i apologize. i was surprised by what i do. But, i learned the hard way about the importance of explaining and saying sorry in a relationship. i know how much this person meant to me.i dont want to spoil this one with my egocentric.i was so very relieved.
So that's the source of my feel good vibe.By knowing that i try my best to do the best for people i care about..
Insyaallah.:o)
Sep 9, 2011
Bila Cinta
Bila cinta kini
Tak lagi bermakna
Yang ku rasa kini
Hanyalah nestapa
Ditinggalkan cinta masa lalu
Dulu kau tawarkan
Manisnya janjimu
Yang ku sambut itu
Dengan segenap hatiku
Bila engkau pergi
Tinggalkanku
Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku memilih
Cinta yang fana
Perginya dirimu
merobek jantungku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan
as much as i love Farid Kamil, i feel sad watching the movie.But the song thrilled me...i Still love you Mr. F.even if the movie made me cry.
Lots of Love,
Your fan
Tak lagi bermakna
Yang ku rasa kini
Hanyalah nestapa
Ditinggalkan cinta masa lalu
Dulu kau tawarkan
Manisnya janjimu
Yang ku sambut itu
Dengan segenap hatiku
Bila engkau pergi
Tinggalkanku
Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku memilih
Cinta yang fana
Perginya dirimu
merobek jantungku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan
as much as i love Farid Kamil, i feel sad watching the movie.But the song thrilled me...i Still love you Mr. F.even if the movie made me cry.
Lots of Love,
Your fan
Sep 8, 2011
Gila sudah
Memang gila kentang.
Kegilaan yang makin ditahan, makin menjadi-jadi pula.
Tolonglah hentikan saja.
Janganlah menunjuk-nunjuk sangat betapa baiknya kamu
Janganlah.
kerana semakin hati suka,
semakin jauhlah aku dari kamu.
Tapi aku suka.
aku jadi malu.
Kegilaan yang makin ditahan, makin menjadi-jadi pula.
Tolonglah hentikan saja.
Janganlah menunjuk-nunjuk sangat betapa baiknya kamu
Janganlah.
kerana semakin hati suka,
semakin jauhlah aku dari kamu.
Tapi aku suka.
aku jadi malu.
Sep 7, 2011
Aura warna warni
Confused sekejap.
pastu muka rasa panas
Muka berubah warna merah
~Malu~
seharian saya rasa riang yang pelik amat.
heeeeeeeeeee...
pastu muka rasa panas
Muka berubah warna merah
~Malu~
seharian saya rasa riang yang pelik amat.
heeeeeeeeeee...
Sep 3, 2011
Things to do
what a hectic week. everyday people are coming and going. we're all coming and going.
i really feel like laying low this year. Just stayed at home,cooking my own food, and drinking plain water.i was not afraid of getting bigger,but to tell the truth, i got scared looking at all those food.
last night i was dreaming of someone whom i thought meant something to me.and i ended up crying in my sleep for the realisation that, it's definitely a high time to move away. So, i woke up in the morning, more zested up than usual and with the determination to carry out my new goals.
*Firstly, get healthy.exercise,exercise,exercise.
*Secondly, styled up professionally, psychologically and personally-there's no way im going waste my life mopping up for something/anything irrelevant
*settle pending matters-im going to watch this.quite tricky area here.
well, im not going to waste another part of my life by angry about some people irresponsible behaviour. i dont have that much control anyway. but i have full power over my life and my decision.so, im going to start with my life first,insya allah.
Im determine to start anew. No more hanging ghost.
If you would see the bad things, you could only recognize the bad. But i pray that Allah shows me the best and the good things in life, and allow me the wisdom to understand the difference.
Life is too short to let it be spoiled by our attitude towards people/people's attitude towards us.
Have to learn to let go, and let God helps us with the rest.Insya Allah.
i really feel like laying low this year. Just stayed at home,cooking my own food, and drinking plain water.i was not afraid of getting bigger,but to tell the truth, i got scared looking at all those food.
last night i was dreaming of someone whom i thought meant something to me.and i ended up crying in my sleep for the realisation that, it's definitely a high time to move away. So, i woke up in the morning, more zested up than usual and with the determination to carry out my new goals.
*Firstly, get healthy.exercise,exercise,exercise.
*Secondly, styled up professionally, psychologically and personally-there's no way im going waste my life mopping up for something/anything irrelevant
*settle pending matters-im going to watch this.quite tricky area here.
well, im not going to waste another part of my life by angry about some people irresponsible behaviour. i dont have that much control anyway. but i have full power over my life and my decision.so, im going to start with my life first,insya allah.
Im determine to start anew. No more hanging ghost.
If you would see the bad things, you could only recognize the bad. But i pray that Allah shows me the best and the good things in life, and allow me the wisdom to understand the difference.
Life is too short to let it be spoiled by our attitude towards people/people's attitude towards us.
Have to learn to let go, and let God helps us with the rest.Insya Allah.
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