akhirnya tiba hari rehat.hari yang paling gembira dalam seminggu.hari untuk buat aktiviti2 terlepas minggu ni.contohnya,basuh baju, mengemas rumah dan..masak.bukan apa.hari2 biasa bila balik rumah setiap petang, penat... bangun 1 hour before maghrib-mandi,iron baju dan sebelum tersedar it's already 9pm.
tapi minggu ni agak special.lain dari yang lain.sebab minggu depan, im going to be away for a course.2 minggu pula tu.Vistana, KL.so it means, hari rehat hanya hari sabtu.hari berikutnya kena bangun awal-awal pagi-walaupun hari ahad-dan berangkat naik bas ke Sibu sblm ke KL tengahharinya.rasa malas, sebab i have been in and out quite banyak kali juga.and perjalanan dia selalunya sgt memenatkan.bukan tu saja, kali ni selepas balik dari sana kena ganti kelas lagi..kena buat banyak benda.and dua minggu selepas tu..i'll be away once again.cuti raya.walaupun tu adalah interesting prospect but the physical journey tu...hmm,rasa macam best pula berurut.hehe.
saya sdh cuba settlekan yang boleh, assignment and quiz untuk budak2 sem3.dan quiz untuk sem 1.ganti kelas mana yang patut.i like the feeling of accomplishment-mampu untuk buat sesuatu-rasa lega yang tidak tergambar.at least, balik nanti tidaklah tertekan sangat buat itu dan ini.atleast, adalah idea yang boleh difikirkan bila2 sy ada masa lapang time kursus tu nanti.
satu saja yang belum settle dan semakin jadi sangat personal setiap hari.mulanya sekadar tidak bertegur sapa.ingatkan ia tidak akan berpanjangan.nampaknya tekaan saya salah.sekarang rasanya sudah sgt terlambat untuk buat apa2 untuk betulkan.saya tidak tahu macam mana atau kenapa, tapi rasanya,saya sudah kehilangan kawan rapat saya.jadi,agaknya harus di biarkan sajalah kan.macam kata seseorang tu-we have the chance, but it didnt work out..huhu
jadi saya pg kursus dengan perasaan yang bercampur baur.suka sebab maksudnya selepas ini hanya kena melalui proses pencerapan yang minor saja.PTK dsb
sedih sebab sesuatu yang hilang dari tangan(figuratively)..huhu
so,until next time
Aug 14, 2009
Aug 13, 2009
curiosity kills the cat
if i can, i would avoid mentioning the name of the person im about to write.im not one to speak about other people whether they are dead or alive.and especially more about the dead.
and actually i dont want to write about her or him.it's just im so curious to know more about him/her.whether he/she was really the thing people said she/he was.
i was not really a fan of her/his work, but being a thinker whose mind is always on a constant searching, i just couldnt resist some parts of her literary works.many people says that her works are controversial.and i guess yes..because she was presenting it with different approach.at least different from other people.
always open.always expressive.though im not sure about thought-evoking.because sometimes i feel that whenever i watched her literary works, some parts of it just couldnt fit together-through my amateur eyes lah.sometimes,u just dont have to shout anything, u just let it be, and people understand.sometimes u dont have to explain so much.let other people think what they like.and still the message get across.sometime she/he explains too much and all her/his efforts become meaningless because the actual meaning lost amidst the translation.
nevertheless,she/he was a creative person and a great one at that.and the fact that she/he chose to be different than anybody else-doesnt alter the fact.it reminds me of all those creative people from the past(Virginia Woolf, Hemingway, etc)who chose to live a different life just to prove what they are worth.and probably it had been worthwhile for them while it last.
i really want to know the goings behind the close door-but should i know anything i wanted to know,what then?
anyway, i m trying not to judge her/him for anything.it is between her and her Creator. Al Fatihah for her/him.
still got this curiosity eating up inside.
and actually i dont want to write about her or him.it's just im so curious to know more about him/her.whether he/she was really the thing people said she/he was.
i was not really a fan of her/his work, but being a thinker whose mind is always on a constant searching, i just couldnt resist some parts of her literary works.many people says that her works are controversial.and i guess yes..because she was presenting it with different approach.at least different from other people.
always open.always expressive.though im not sure about thought-evoking.because sometimes i feel that whenever i watched her literary works, some parts of it just couldnt fit together-through my amateur eyes lah.sometimes,u just dont have to shout anything, u just let it be, and people understand.sometimes u dont have to explain so much.let other people think what they like.and still the message get across.sometime she/he explains too much and all her/his efforts become meaningless because the actual meaning lost amidst the translation.
nevertheless,she/he was a creative person and a great one at that.and the fact that she/he chose to be different than anybody else-doesnt alter the fact.it reminds me of all those creative people from the past(Virginia Woolf, Hemingway, etc)who chose to live a different life just to prove what they are worth.and probably it had been worthwhile for them while it last.
i really want to know the goings behind the close door-but should i know anything i wanted to know,what then?
anyway, i m trying not to judge her/him for anything.it is between her and her Creator. Al Fatihah for her/him.
still got this curiosity eating up inside.
the name of the game:mind your own business
the last thing i need is for anybody to poke their nose on my business.the last thing i need is for anyone telling me what to do or not to do.why should u do that?it pissed me off.u think it is cool because u know something i might not know,but heck baby..dont be such a show off!
Aug 12, 2009
back to basic
dont know what to say.
cakap kang tak kena.
cakap kang merajuk.
cakap byk kang org kata lebih2.
tak cakap langsung pelik pula.
tak nak cakap, rasa nak gila.
habis nak macammana?
saya kena cakap apa untuk betulkan balik?
atau saya tak payah cakap apa2 langsung?
atau apa?
atau biar saja?
mungkin biar dulu...
cakap kang tak kena.
cakap kang merajuk.
cakap byk kang org kata lebih2.
tak cakap langsung pelik pula.
tak nak cakap, rasa nak gila.
habis nak macammana?
saya kena cakap apa untuk betulkan balik?
atau saya tak payah cakap apa2 langsung?
atau apa?
atau biar saja?
mungkin biar dulu...
Aug 10, 2009
Time to think
went to a course-Professional Training for Young Lecturers in Beverly Hotel,KK.(30/7-2/8/09)
before i commented on anything i would like to sing my praises for the hotel.clean, neat and orderly.Everything was up to the standard.Everything was aimed to please.and im one of the pleased customers.it's not so much about anything..but how comfortable u feel when u actually accomodate the room.
Secondly, the course itself. In this two weeks time, all of the courses that i attended were all talking about integrity and how to provide a more clear cut service to our clients.many of the course have opened my mind to a new way of thinking and approaching things. It recreates values and preferences concerning how we tackled our dwelling daily.
I like the course because it instils so much confidence to what i am doing, believing in my strenght as a young individual who can contribute much and whose position matters to the organization.
Most of the speakers are those who are driven to the max, and very passionate about the job.Believing that everyone can make a different. That we're human, not perfect, packaged with mistakes and weaknesses..and/but we re learning and improving from that.It feels nice and certainly gets my motivation going up.
These people are those people who have a strong belief in Allah-as a strenght for them to do better in this world,knowing that Allah is more knowledgeable about the rest.
but then, at the end of the day my motivation was marred by people who like doing comparison so much.dont compare,just try to be...will u?
before i commented on anything i would like to sing my praises for the hotel.clean, neat and orderly.Everything was up to the standard.Everything was aimed to please.and im one of the pleased customers.it's not so much about anything..but how comfortable u feel when u actually accomodate the room.
Secondly, the course itself. In this two weeks time, all of the courses that i attended were all talking about integrity and how to provide a more clear cut service to our clients.many of the course have opened my mind to a new way of thinking and approaching things. It recreates values and preferences concerning how we tackled our dwelling daily.
I like the course because it instils so much confidence to what i am doing, believing in my strenght as a young individual who can contribute much and whose position matters to the organization.
Most of the speakers are those who are driven to the max, and very passionate about the job.Believing that everyone can make a different. That we're human, not perfect, packaged with mistakes and weaknesses..and/but we re learning and improving from that.It feels nice and certainly gets my motivation going up.
These people are those people who have a strong belief in Allah-as a strenght for them to do better in this world,knowing that Allah is more knowledgeable about the rest.
but then, at the end of the day my motivation was marred by people who like doing comparison so much.dont compare,just try to be...will u?
Aug 6, 2009
mr.right mr.wrong
is there really?i dont think so.
wrong or right, it depends on how u see it.
of course if u wish for that one person to complete your life and makes your life whole,then u get the sentiment right.
but then again,what happens in your life before u meet that one person?hadnt u been living just fine?which part of it that is not complete?what is the definition of "completeness?"why u insist on categorizing it into right and wrong?how right?or how wrong?what u actually mean when u said u want "that someone that makes u feel better?"jadi selama ini,tidakkah?
i hope u didnt say it out of imagination.because imagination always mislead.
i read something a few years back..on why people find relationship troublesome
sebab selalunya bila kita mulakan perhubungan, kita anggapkan bahawa pasangan kita adalah orang sempurna,pelengkap kepada apa yang kurang,yang akan buat hidup kamu yang kosong tu terisi.and it doesnt have to be that.
i truly believe in my heart, when u want to be in a relationship with someone,it's because u want to be with them..just because u enjoy the company,and because u can share anything with the person.for no reason other than because u want to..JUST BECAUSE!that's why friendship is less complicated than being in a serious relationship.
yes..just because.
wrong or right, it depends on how u see it.
of course if u wish for that one person to complete your life and makes your life whole,then u get the sentiment right.
but then again,what happens in your life before u meet that one person?hadnt u been living just fine?which part of it that is not complete?what is the definition of "completeness?"why u insist on categorizing it into right and wrong?how right?or how wrong?what u actually mean when u said u want "that someone that makes u feel better?"jadi selama ini,tidakkah?
i hope u didnt say it out of imagination.because imagination always mislead.
i read something a few years back..on why people find relationship troublesome
sebab selalunya bila kita mulakan perhubungan, kita anggapkan bahawa pasangan kita adalah orang sempurna,pelengkap kepada apa yang kurang,yang akan buat hidup kamu yang kosong tu terisi.and it doesnt have to be that.
i truly believe in my heart, when u want to be in a relationship with someone,it's because u want to be with them..just because u enjoy the company,and because u can share anything with the person.for no reason other than because u want to..JUST BECAUSE!that's why friendship is less complicated than being in a serious relationship.
yes..just because.
Aug 5, 2009
nota hari
jiwa halusku tersentuh
oleh cerita yang ku baca
dan kemudian merasa ada perasaan aneh dalam hati
tiba-tiba
bila ku jalan lagi ke satu arah
dek kerana terpanggil oleh apa yang ku baca
terasa benar sepi di sekitarku
sepi oleh suara tanpa rasa
sepi kerana jasad yang tak tersentuh oleh tangan
sepi kerana terkurung oleh jiwa halus yang terkesan
oleh cerita yang ku baca
walau amat biasa
tapi penuh warna..
hmm,tak mahu mengeluhlah.
kerana ku pilih ini.
harapnya nanti ku jumpa dia
yang bisa menenggelamkan aku
dalam lautan perasaan yang...yang...yang..(still tidak dpt describe perasaan sendiri)
harap-harap ku jumpa dia.
dan aku bisa memeluk dia
tanpa syarat dan ragu.
oleh cerita yang ku baca
dan kemudian merasa ada perasaan aneh dalam hati
tiba-tiba
bila ku jalan lagi ke satu arah
dek kerana terpanggil oleh apa yang ku baca
terasa benar sepi di sekitarku
sepi oleh suara tanpa rasa
sepi kerana jasad yang tak tersentuh oleh tangan
sepi kerana terkurung oleh jiwa halus yang terkesan
oleh cerita yang ku baca
walau amat biasa
tapi penuh warna..
hmm,tak mahu mengeluhlah.
kerana ku pilih ini.
harapnya nanti ku jumpa dia
yang bisa menenggelamkan aku
dalam lautan perasaan yang...yang...yang..(still tidak dpt describe perasaan sendiri)
harap-harap ku jumpa dia.
dan aku bisa memeluk dia
tanpa syarat dan ragu.
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