The plans

At my house, doing quite many entertaining activities. my girlfriend is away on a course for three weeks, so all activities would be around myself for the time being.

Day 1,Saturday:
suddenly realized how much i missed just relaxing at home. Cleaning, washing clothes, cooking, dusting, rearranging things or simply watching TV. I missed the sleeping in, i missed waking up early waiting for the sun streaming at my balcony, i missed my morning coffee on saturday/sunday, i missed listening to MixFM, in short i miss my house.So i cooked sweet and spicy meat and ate them with much more enthusiasm than ever. I wondered what has brought about the change in my activity? Yes, i'd spent quite many times outing with my friends, or rode out with my new car that i hardly stayed at home these lately. i am still the homely person that i like. I was so determined that the water problem wouldn't affect my relaxation, so i cleaned the back, and my kitchen. So happy making a home of my house:o).
So i began plotting my next three week with a happy planning of staying home and be selfish about my happiness..Feel Great!:o)

Day 2, Sunday:
Well, other than a little bit of scattered FBing activity, i cooked, and watched TV-some of them are the rerun of yesterday's programmes, waiting to fill in the pails with water and choosing clothes to be wear to office and ironing them, and corresponding with my girlfriend, i watched a lot of movies, and criticized them, what a life but fun.hahaha. i blocked off other people and i negatively rejected any attempt of spending time with anyone. again, i selfishly keeping my time alone for myself. i hope they understand. After all i have no obligation whatsoever to be at anyone's service, other than those that has something to do with me. Feel great to be frank with people.:o)

But this is just the beginning. Struggle hasn't start yet. I wish i would be able to be with myself within these three weeks. Insya Allah.

again, a reminder: I am not responsible for anyone's well being.

(^_^)

Pregnant Silence

My problem is in my inability to stand constant whining and complaining about everything. after awhile of whining and complaining, it becomes very tiresome and irritating. It is the cheapest way to get attention. Either you do it, or you stand up and do things for yourself or just shut up about it. Hearing people complains almost about everything he has gone through in a day is damned boring, and annoying. Especially, if he started to feel pity about himself, and started to act like a victim. damned it. tiring!

The thing is, we have already had enough on our plate for a day to add on and be told about what's wrong with life, followed with what to do, what you have to do, what made you miserable or that you are damned busy with everything as if other people just sit around eating ice cream. Come on, have a little faith in the world which god has created for us all to try living!

Im trying to be sympathetic here, but after awhile trying, and the person at the end is too damned stubborn to listen to reasons..


i am trying to be in my best manner, trying to be supportive, trying to give the other person an excuse for that annoying attitude but, i can't hold out for self pity. So i keep to myself, stay mum, and stay away. For my own peace of mind.

I just can't win!

Air

Memang sedap.Tapi bosan

Krisis air ini menambahkan perbelanjaan bulanan. Air minum kena beli. Makan kena beli. Hendak masak perlu fikir proses pembersihan selepas masak. Perlu fikir aspek penyediaan makanan itu bersih atau tidak. jadi sudahnya, makan saja diluar. Dari segi memuaskan tekak, walaupun ala-ala, tapi risiko keracunan kerana air kotor adalah minima.

Prinsip ekonomi: Bila permintaan terhadap satu barang keperluan naik, harganya akan naik. Barang kehendak turut sama naik harga. Contohnya, tiba-tiba permintaan terhadap kopi naik, lalu harganya naik. Harga teh juga akan naik,kerana pembeli akan membeli teh yanh lebih murah berbanding kopi. yang tak disedari adalah harga teh juga akan meningkat kerana kesan permintaan yang menaik.

Isunya di sini, bila perbelanjaan makan meningkat, perbelanjaan terhadap minyak kereta juga akan meningkat kerana proses ulang alik keluar mencari tempat makan.
Semuanya serba meningkat.

Ini cukup untuk menyebabkan stress. Saya enggan mengkomen orang yang sudah berkeluarga. Kerana saya tidak berada ditempat mereka. tapi, percayalah. Orang yang hidup single turut merasai bebanan ini. Beban yang sepatutnya DAPAT dielakkan sekiranya, orang-orang yang bertanggungjawab SEDAR dengan peranan tersebut dari mula.

Tolonglah.Untuk kebaikan bersama, fikirkan satu solusi jangka panjang. jangan sekadar nak tunjuk pandai dengan satu idea yang konon bernas tapi tak berguna untuk jangka panjang. Kalau sudah tak mahu orang tunjukkan bagaimana, tolong berikan satu cara yang lebih baik.


Air ini keperluan, bukannya kehendak. tanpa bersyarah pun mengenai kepentingannya, semua orang sepatutnya tahu.

My troubled heart

Every girl will go through the stage of getting married at least once in their life. For some, it is anticipated and waited for. Some avoid it altogether. Some are considering it. Some couldn't care less. It's all happened a few week back for me. My mother called me full of excitement and hope that everything would ends happily for everyone. It was a happy moment for her. I was happy for the news.But, even before my mother put the phone down, tears were running uncontrollably down my cheeks.

i cried helplessly.i just couldn't bring myself to even think about the prospect.i could't go through with it.

Mr.Clumsy

Even if you are clumsy, even if you are weird,
Even when you are moody, or when you are rude,
Even when you sit silently, or just nod
or when you smile, or when you are serious
or when you joke
or laugh
or teasing
or many other surprising sides of you
imperfect in many ways

But still perfect in my eyes

(^_^)

The Happy Hours

simply happy:O)

The Joy of Life

Life is very unpredictable in nature. Nevertheless, there are million things to be thankful for. Million things that make us happy. Million things to be proud of. Million things to look forward too. Million things to learn from.

i couldn't possibly put my feeling into words for this image. all i know is when i took this picture, i was struck by feeling of awe and excitement. i was humbled by the movement, the tiny fingers, the head, legs and the life inside. It washed away my former self and changed it with a new determination to appreciate life and time in general. It made me want to be "present" in my life.

Moving on is what i want to do. and will continue doing. For me.